haven been blogging so i dun know wat to write
lol

i know, you must be thinking zzz nw
but i got nth to blog abt because all i had was exams and playing maple.
hehs

I was too rash the day before
There are 2 people telling me two sides of the story
Contradicting each other
I got fustrated over it and I let it got over myself
I wish to apologise if you have been offended by me
I didn't mean it.
I did it out of a moment of foolishness.
I'm sorry for the previous post.

well, i didnt know that actually some ppl were trying to plot revenge against me?
for making whoever angry in the past

i agree i got fault
this ppl are damn one sided
dun they see its also whoever's fault?
lame shit
lame shit
lame shit

now now
let me quote the words from vi*ce*t *o whom he quoted the words from spiderman
"if you want to hurt her, dun hurt her physically
hurt her mentally"
lame shit
you think you spiderman arh?
so that i will be distracted for my o lvls.
my foot! js,cs then kns!
i wont be distracted
mark my words

and all the 05 guys who think that they very big
plus the SCreW
all of you all gang up to hurt me "emotionally"
LOL

so be it
i am not affected

i dint know that the guys are wreaking vengance against me
omg
you wont succeed in making me "hurt emotionally"
this so funny

so wat?

Xinthesis was a success for XM guzheng!

us placing the stands

our rehearsal. so blluurr. notice one thing. mr thum is wearing a sleevless shirt=)

lol

random pictures

guess who?Valerie!munling is drama

i finished my a maths homework!
like finally.
i am happy=)

some photos of us in the bishan library
munling using her ninja claws on me

090607
went to my cousin chalet
and was damn disappointed

firstly
ESCAPE sucks
there always seem to be rides under construction
and it says to be the largest theme park in Singapore
and yet its so small?
but i like the flipper
its so nice!

secondly
i dunno how to cycle
ohyea,laugh all you want

there i was cycling a four-wheeled bicycle
while all my cousins were cycling so damn fast
i was left behind by my cousins
with my brother

sian diao

thirdly
i was all geared up to go swimming with my cousins
when something bad happened
i am so pissed off
ended up bbqing food
for ppl to eat
all the smoke billowing at my face

but anyway i realised that bbq sotong ball coated with honey is so nice!=)

fourthly
we wanted to go for bowling at Downtown East
we reached there only to be told by the security guard that its closed for upgrading
w.t.H

so we went back
played mahjong for like 2hrs
den went bbqing again

Happy 15th Birthday to huihui!
thanks for the chalet, i really enjoyed myself though=)
thats about it

110607
went for guzheng
i haven memorised everything yet
and our performance is one practice with the conductor away
provided if we work hard
our performance will be nice
cuz the new song that we are learning is like nth before
there's a timpani( germaine taught me how to spell this)
and it creates the whole atmosphere

but i dun think anybody want to go see our performance
i cant seem to sell my tickets
but i really want ppl to come and watch?
we've worked so hard for it
hai

ohyea,
jingwen cut her hair today
thats all=)

i was sadded that the longest strand of my hair was gone
and my hair was cut until damn short like when i was in sec1

lol, just kidding la

it was just shorter and thinner than last time
i know how to be smart le

indescribable feelings~
dont ever let me find out that you are lying to me
i'll kill you, chop you, cook you, eat you
and shit you like the shit you are
quoted from Gurmit Singh in the ( just follow law)

and i haven do my homework
i am feeling guilty

changed my blog song

天亮以后，就再也牵不到你的手。
天亮以后，就得慢慢离开你的梦。

ohyea, went to see Pirates of the Carribean today
it wasnt as funny as the last one
and i didnt really get the story plot
i dun even know wats the whole motive of this movie
i rmb we watched the last one together and it was damn funny
ohwells

spent the rest of my day mapling and guzheng-ing
and i still cant play the same part
i really dislike myself for it
the harder i try, the more i get stuck

argh, like this how am i going to go guzheng tmr?
i am like so dead please

and i owe ms sun three essays

i promise to at least finish one by this week
well, i hope i can

hai, comments on my life now
one word
sucks

guzheng-ed today
all i can say that is i totally collapsed
i dunno why there's this particular part which i am always stuck no matter wat
i think its my xin li zhuo yong

plus this is the hardest ZHENGIII score that we've ever seen
the performance is just 6 practices away

and we got another performance on the 3rd of july
the syf opening watever instrumental ensemble
in singapore conference hall

yaye, i am happy=))))
even if i might affect my prelims

we may not have a chance to perform on stage anymore
plus we are the only school thats representing guzheng ensemble

today will be our 11th month if we were along together

27/05/07
went to airport to 送妹妹到 sarawak
den went grandma house
cuz it was too boring
me, my brother and my cousin decided to go playground and play
lol
we played games like catching, hopscotch.
games that we used to play together so long ago
we lied on the playground floor
its so cool and nice


den took picture of the moon

i nvr knew how much i missed everyone of my cousins and the childish games we used to play when we were young until now.

but there's only three of us
thats the moon. actually we played with the camera so that the moon is elongated to a Nike sign

i look forward to lying there again<333

anybody willing to be childish with me?

yesterday, smth terrible happened in our house



so terrible thats its beyond words=(



T.T



our refrigerator is sick

it happened when jingwen was very excited about eating the strawberry cheesecake icecream that has been lying in the fridge for dun-know-how-long

and she opens the tub and finds melted icecream leaking out

imagine how disappointed she is=(((



den she calls for her mum
which realises that the freezer is not working
5tubs of icecream has melted


omg


i waited so long for that moment
to savour the taste of strawberry cheesecake icecream


hai

the next day,
we have a prawn feast

cuz there are tons of prawns in the freezer which may go bad

just ate the strawberry cheesecake icecream
the icecream is all placed at my grandma's house freezer
and my parents went to get them on their way back to work

and guess wat?

i downed one tub of the icecream by myself just now
i had no choice=(

wat am i feeling now:
damn guilty
puking
sick of any food that has got to do with strawberry cheesecake or icecream

two lessons learnt- nvr stock up more than 2 tubs of icecream in your freezer because they will break down

and

food tastes nicer when there's ppl to fight with you over it=)

last day of sch for semester one







me eating at pasta mania. jiayun took this picture

this is when i am too gei kiang. i added tons of tobasco sauce and ended up with swollen lips=(

us eating tons of food(especially my sista) she ate at least five kinds of food. hehs=)

me, sista,nicole and jiayun. where's the cold stoarge boss?=)

they are lesbians!=) just kidding lalol, famous cold storage boss with FA-faced sista.

one boss one slave=)))

had guzheng today
practice new song
yao zhu=)
so nice!
ZHENGIII finally had solo!
only the front part actually
its just like one percent of the whole song

we having concert on 30th June!

please come support
anybody wants ticket for XINTHESIS?
10dollar each

anyway xinthesis is such a lame name
kaleidoscope is so much better

anyway we only perform for 12 minutes i think
Opera takes up one hour
u should be lucky that you get to see us for ten minutes!xD

treasure every minute of XMGZT.

den got 7practices in JUNE HOLS!
its killing us
f5

yaye! but i am happy.=)))))))))))))

the person killing the squishy liquid is me! and my brother
the gal on top is my sister and charis
lol!

today is watching videos day at school


biology-watched the lives of many aquamarine creatures in the coral and tidal sea
english-watched MI3

den while the chinese ppl had intensive
we were in the library, boring ourselves
hai, i wish i had the chance to retake my cl
my regret for life...

tada, thats my life in school=)))

"Only selfish ppl will be so evil"
quoted from ms ng
who is referring to me right?
for hurting your favourite boy

ohya, and today while playing maple
some fcuking character called MagicZardz
demanded me to add his fame

okies, i admit i promise him i will up his fame
cuz that time i traded fame with ppl le
but today i up ppl fame le
den i cant up his
he insisted and threaten to report gm
report report la!
i got scam or scold vulgarities?

den, walao he go drop my fame
wtf!

you fame 32 le still so care about it

u think ppl want to up your fame cuz u are popular?
u force ppl to up your fame =(((
CHEATER!


oh watever~
today is full of un-nice stuff

and wtf!
i bought a bag for you and you refused to use it
u nvr knew how to appreciate my effort.x)
why did i bother den?
i am sadded=(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

changed the song

still, i love brown eyes by Destiny's Child

an excerpt from the song

如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异
我的笑她无法代替离开你
我才发现自己那爱笑的眼睛
流过泪像躲不过的暴风雨淋湿的昨天
删去(忘记)离开你
我才找回自己那爱笑的眼睛
再见爱情
我一定让自己让自己决定

thats wat i am feeling right now

麻烦
麻烦
麻烦

did you really say that?

hate me all you want
i dun give a damn abt it

so wat if you had fall to the rock bottom and i decided to make you fall deeper?
u caused it yourself
i daresay i gave you alot of chances

i've learnt
when you want to judge ppl for their actions
please put yourself in their shoes
and think
if you were in the same situation, wld you have done the same?

we are all humans
we protect our loved ones
and tend to be selfish at that
can you understand?

Same usual things happened today.
Checking exam scripts, digging for marks.
Yup, XD.
Disappointing results.

I've learnt many things. Really.
Especially my mistakes.
Everyone makes mistakes.
But, the most important thing is to learn from it and never repeat it again.
I won't. I will make sure the same old mistakes won't repeat anymore.
I regretted for all the things I did.
I'm sincerely sorry.

Forgiving is hard, but not forgiving is even harder.
(Sound familiar, it's from the smoking advertisment on the scary lady)
LOL.

I really have learnt.
I won't betray your trust again and cause tensions anymore.
I will honor my promise on not interfering in the matter at all.
I shall trust you to always come up with the solution for me.
I have regretted what I've done in the past.

It's glad for me to see that you've realised your mistakes, and trying to make things better.
It's glad that you've regretted your wrong actions.

I will never do things to betray your trust anymore.
Neither will I do things that will upset you.
I will honor what I promised you just now.
Everything shall be done out of initiative.
I do not need you to remind me anymore.
Yea, I won't even bother to msg a single letter to
strangers, nor will I reply at all.
See just delete.
A promise is a promise
Let's say I know that you won't feel
unhappy or upset when i reply
I also won't bother to breathe a single word or msg a single letter to
strangers because I know what I've got to do, and I know my limits.
Promises shall never be broken by me.
I'm very sure you'll do the same too right.
Hopefully, you know what's right and wrong.
I will no longer need you to remind me on what to do and
remind me of my mistakes anymore.
It will all just come automatically.
I will no longer need you to ask me to promise you anything
becauseI will be the one promising you initatively when there
is something to be promised.
I shall never lie to you too. I will be honest.
I promised I'll never lie to you and I will never break this promise.
i will never break any promises

Are you able to do that?
Hopefully, you'll be damn honest.

some photos of yesterday!=)))

okies
performance today was

no comments

i also dunno wat to say
or how we fared

but i enjoyed myself
at least better than syf where everything just happens
so fast

one more performance and thats it
we gonna step down
i dun feel like
i love the feeling of being part of the guzheng melody
trying my best to play my part well
and compliment the rest of the zhengs with wat we played
even though we are just base

but i love it


asked yuxin to take photos for us
me and my sister and her friends are working on some project
hehs, so we nd tons of photos

i want memories

got back more results today
disappointing
but improved in my english
so overall i am happy!=DDD

i am craving for ben and jerry's icecream now=(((
BADLY
Strawberry Cheesecake especially
its so nice!=)))
like you can nvr stop eating them once you start
even thought there are three tubs of icecream lying in the fridge
i bet mum will say i cant eat them
cause i have been eating icecream nonstop for the past few days
and she says its bad for health

hai.

so far yet so near
does that apply to our relationship too?

got back my reaults today
one word to describe it
DISAPPOINTING

well, i think its my worst midyr ever
lol, the only consolation that i can come up with is that i only start revision seriuosly is five days before the exams

ohwells T.T

nvm

guzheng today
was fun!xD

tmr, we going to perform in sch
we rarely perform in sch leh
so give us a loud round of applause to support us tmr if we done well.=)))

i LOVE guzheng

schooling is so sian recently
everyday's just chinese
i cant stand it
no learning new stuffs
just keep on doing doing doing
:((((
my life's meaningless.

Some pictures of yesterdayshe keeps blowing
and blowing
and blowing! LOL,its relightable candles.
our picture together! i think thats the only picture that the sevenofus took togetherxD
from the left, munling, limin,wanling,ruimin,bel, germaine and me!xD
I love them! <3333!


we made this for mothers' day. the one above is made by my sister! isnt it nice?
I LOVE IT!

was a sian day again
we did a bao zhang bao dao on the importance of learning chinese
i think thats all.

Happy Birthday, RUIMIN!

shall upload the pictures of ruimin blowing the candles tmr
i dunno wats wrong with blogger
cause i go close my post when the pictures are still uploading
den i tried to upload four or five times but still cannot
hai
" you are dumb" quoted from munling
am i?

end up we dun have a performance on 18may
we having performance on 30th june in the drama center in the natinal library
we will be learning new songs!xD
and our practice starts this thurs
ooh, i missed them so much!<3333 color="#33ccff">Over it by Katharine McPhee
I’m over your lies
And I’m over your games
I’m over you asking me
When you know I’m not okay
You call me at night
And I pick up the phone
And though you be tellin’ me I know you’re not alone

Oh and that’s why your eyes
I’m over it
Your smile
I’m over it
Realized
I’m over it, I’m over it
I’m over

Wanting you to be wanting me
No that ain’t no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I’m so over (I’m so over it
) Movin’ on and it’s my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I’m so over
I’m so over it

I’m over your hands
And I’m over your mouth
Trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt
Oh and that’s why your world
I’m over it
So sure I’m over it
I’m not your girl
I’m over it, I’m over it
I’m over

Wanting you to be wanting me
No that ain’t no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I’m so over (I’m so over it)
Moving on and it’s my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I’m so over
So over it
I’m so over it

Don’t call, Don’t come by
Ain’t no use don’t ask me why
You’ll never change
There’ll be no more crying in the rain
No, Oh oh I’m over it

i love this song!xD

just back from the dentist

look at the the mess they made at the table using melted ice kachang(doesnt it look like a ghost?) i didnt contribute to it!

i LOVE STRAWBERRY ICECREAM!

den my father bought a 4 gig memory card for the psp

means can download lots more games!

i got stm memory
i forgot everything that i memorised abt biology
and now its information overload.
hai
LIFE
IS
STRESSFUL

i wish it was back to 280606
a year ago
that i met you
i would make sure things will nvr turn out the way it is now
trust me
i will
perhaps all this is too late
ppl only konw how to treasure their loved ones when they're gone

bored-
can somebody rescue me from boring earth?
den we shall go live on the stars!~
away from everything from life
we can see the stars every second=))))

are human more superior than other animals?
yes, we are
we have the right to keep animals in zoo

but why are we so?
cause we got BRAINS!
to think

lol, i was studying biology, thats why

Physics paper today
but i dun think i scored well
i forgot to label ac current
and i dunno wats a load resistor
hai
looks like i am not going to score well in any of my subjects

life been meaningless lately
just exam
go home
study
stay up late to cram everything
worry about exam
next day
wake up
tired
go sch
exam

its just like the same cycle everyday
furthermore, i dun even want to get my results back

"Death is wat makes life meaningful"
quoted from mr arthur lim

is that so?
i am so going to die in the future
but does that make my life more meaningful?
do we even have time to enjoy the joys of life?
i dunno
everyday's just studying abt something which
is going to let me live forever?
lol
if everybody's going to die
wat's the use of studying anyway?

i realised i am damn fickleminded
sometimes i miss you
sometimes i love you
sometimes i forgive
sometimes i hate
i hate this love/hate relationship
stupid brain and heart.X(

just took a break from studying
lol
actually, i am very distracted by my brother playing maple
meanwhile i was looking thru some prelims physics paper
by ACS, Anderson and Chinese high
when i saw the paper i was like ...
All the questions are damn difficult
i dun even know how to attempt so i straight away looked at the answer sheet
hehs

plus, this is my worse mid-yr =(((
today de amaths paper, i left three blanks
not to say a few qns which were half-done
i stared at the matrix question for 10mins
but still dunno how to do
walao, mind-blocked

i realised all my papers, i havent been able to fully complete them
nvm, shall chiong for prelims then

Hehs, guzheng going to perform on 18may!
in sch
well, that may be my last performance but i am looking forward to it
the same forty ppl! <333

"Men can't do without women because of their feminism"
by Sidney Sheldon
well, is that true?
guys will have to answer it

hais, my mixed feelings
something's telling me that i shouldnt dwell too much
but its killing me

munling came to my house and we study physics and maths together
hai
my mood swings
when will they go away?
i once thought we would last forever
apparently, it wasnt so
but...

i hate to shed anymore tears
but they are coming to me every evening
hai

yea, i am being petty
but i feel like it
hate me if you want =/

today is the start of exams =(((
english paper today
actually the topic quite easy to write
but i dun have time
i wrote abt courage
abt a boyfriend being to overpossessive of his galfriend
hai
actually wanted to write the depth of love the gal has
but not enough time
so just anyhow write lo
so not my style la
i keep on having one sentence paragraphs
eg.
i never possess the courage to fight for wat i want.i never had to fight for my dreams or passion


they come to me.


LOL. Sounds so assertive
but thats nvr me
den end up the gal also nvr stand up to the guy
sadded=(((
sure score very low
so anticlimax



while for my compre, i wrote very stupid answers
everybody was like laughing at my answers


after sch when to study at hg mall macdonald
munling taught me transformation!
actually its quite easy
all about joining pts together
but was stumped at some rate of change qn
my confidence is lowered =(((
jingwen will continue to work hard! =DDD
me and munling at mac <333

look at the mess we created =)

x! *dun take pictures of me!*

my last year trigonometry test. i got full marks!
but this yr like nvr get full marks anymre =(((

munling is growing double eyelids =)))
so amazing!

saw some very astonishing xinmin ppl together today


hai, i hate you to laugh with him

just took a break from studying

i am feeling better though just now i am having a slight headache
LOL,I KNOW HOW TO DO MATHS QNS!
AND I GOT 70% OF THE QUESTIONS CORRECT.

thats considered an achievement since i just started amaths revision yesterday

lol, i miss going to my grandma house
i miss my grandma
and her YUMMY FOOD.
i think i have been eating dapao everyday
cuz my dad's cargo arrived and he needs to get it packed as fast as possible
so no time to cook
today's instant noodles again

i also managed to revise the biology topics taught this year!
yaye!

pls go youtube search xinmin guzheng
got our guzheng practice video!
yaye=)))
enjoy!

some random pictures munling took this while wer were at the prata shop after revising maths in sch
what am i thinking? i dunno ><

munling helping me carry my tote cuz i was carrying too much stuffs on my hand. thanks, munling! but she look ALAF. =)))

Arent the rainbows on the road nice?
i like rainbows, they signifies happiness
something which is lost

i took this photo today cuz i was too bored with my amaths. isnt my brother hardworking and cute? LOL=))

I am sorry