Jingwen

2007-08-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging so i dun know wat to write
lol

i know, you must be thinking zzz nw
but i got nth to blog abt because all i had was exams and playing maple.
hehs

2007-07-24T19:53:00.001+08:00

I was too rash the day before
There are 2 people telling me two sides of the story
Contradicting each other
I got fustrated over it and I let it got over myself
I wish to apologise if you have been offended by me
I didn't mean it.
I did it out of a moment of foolishness.
I'm sorry for the previous post.

2007-07-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

well, i didnt know that actually some ppl were trying to plot revenge against me?
for making whoever angry in the past

i agree i got fault
this ppl are damn one sided
dun they see its also whoever's fault?
lame shit
lame shit
lame shit

now now
let me quote the words from vi*ce*t *o whom he quoted the words from spiderman
"if you want to hurt her, dun hurt her physically
hurt her mentally"
lame shit
you think you spiderman arh?
so that i will be distracted for my o lvls.
my foot! js,cs then kns!
i wont be distracted
mark my words

and all the 05 guys who think that they very big
plus the SCreW
all of you all gang up to hurt me "emotionally"
LOL

so be it
i am not affected

i dint know that the guys are wreaking vengance against me
omg
you wont succeed in making me "hurt emotionally"
this so funny

so wat?

2007-07-01T00:53:00.000+08:00

Xinthesis was a success for XM guzheng!

and i think that was the best performance yet for us

its so niccceee

i think everybody tried their best yea

den after that for interval, we went out

the audiences actually think that we did well

hearing them say, the feeling is so shuang

we finally played the notes loud

so we nt nt heard

lol

i am happy!

us preparing for the rehearsal

shi ting jingwen munlingone side of my eye shadow fell off

the guys tuning the timpani

us placing the stands

our rehearsal. so blluurr. notice one thing. mr thum is wearing a sleevless shirt=)

lol

2007-06-29T23:51:00.000+08:00

random pictures

i can be seen!

here are some pictures taken on thurs!we love ms Sun!

As guzheng seniors, you shld set gd examples to juniors by tucking in yr shirtwe love jumping!

guess who?Valerie!munling is drama

2007-06-16T22:13:00.001+08:00

i finished my a maths homework!
like finally.
i am happy=)

2007-06-14T19:50:00.000+08:00

some photos of us in the bishan library
munling using her ninja claws on me

the acc that my cousin gave me
my sista
i am a magician!

<333

2007-06-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

090607
went to my cousin chalet
and was damn disappointed

firstly
ESCAPE sucks
there always seem to be rides under construction
and it says to be the largest theme park in Singapore
and yet its so small?
but i like the flipper
its so nice!

secondly
i dunno how to cycle
ohyea,laugh all you want

there i was cycling a four-wheeled bicycle
while all my cousins were cycling so damn fast
i was left behind by my cousins
with my brother

sian diao

thirdly
i was all geared up to go swimming with my cousins
when something bad happened
i am so pissed off
ended up bbqing food
for ppl to eat
all the smoke billowing at my face

but anyway i realised that bbq sotong ball coated with honey is so nice!=)

fourthly
we wanted to go for bowling at Downtown East
we reached there only to be told by the security guard that its closed for upgrading
w.t.H

so we went back
played mahjong for like 2hrs
den went bbqing again

Happy 15th Birthday to huihui!
thanks for the chalet, i really enjoyed myself though=)
thats about it

110607
went for guzheng
i haven memorised everything yet
and our performance is one practice with the conductor away
provided if we work hard
our performance will be nice
cuz the new song that we are learning is like nth before
there's a timpani( germaine taught me how to spell this)
and it creates the whole atmosphere

but i dun think anybody want to go see our performance
i cant seem to sell my tickets
but i really want ppl to come and watch?
we've worked so hard for it
hai

2007-05-31T20:06:00.000+08:00

ohyea,
jingwen cut her hair today
thats all=)

i was sadded that the longest strand of my hair was gone
and my hair was cut until damn short like when i was in sec1

lol, just kidding la

it was just shorter and thinner than last time
i know how to be smart le

indescribable feelings~
dont ever let me find out that you are lying to me
i'll kill you, chop you, cook you, eat you
and shit you like the shit you are
quoted from Gurmit Singh in the ( just follow law)

and i haven do my homework
i am feeling guilty

2007-05-29T20:13:00.001+08:00

changed my blog song

天亮以后，就再也牵不到你的手。
天亮以后，就得慢慢离开你的梦。

ohyea, went to see Pirates of the Carribean today
it wasnt as funny as the last one
and i didnt really get the story plot
i dun even know wats the whole motive of this movie
i rmb we watched the last one together and it was damn funny
ohwells

spent the rest of my day mapling and guzheng-ing
and i still cant play the same part
i really dislike myself for it
the harder i try, the more i get stuck

argh, like this how am i going to go guzheng tmr?
i am like so dead please

and i owe ms sun three essays

i promise to at least finish one by this week
well, i hope i can

hai, comments on my life now
one word
sucks

2007-05-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

guzheng-ed today
all i can say that is i totally collapsed
i dunno why there's this particular part which i am always stuck no matter wat
i think its my xin li zhuo yong

plus this is the hardest ZHENGIII score that we've ever seen
the performance is just 6 practices away

and we got another performance on the 3rd of july
the syf opening watever instrumental ensemble
in singapore conference hall

yaye, i am happy=))))
even if i might affect my prelims

we may not have a chance to perform on stage anymore
plus we are the only school thats representing guzheng ensemble

today will be our 11th month if we were along together

2007-05-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

27/05/07
went to airport to 送妹妹到 sarawak
den went grandma house
cuz it was too boring
me, my brother and my cousin decided to go playground and play
lol
we played games like catching, hopscotch.
games that we used to play together so long ago
we lied on the playground floor
its so cool and nice

den took picture of the moon

i nvr knew how much i missed everyone of my cousins and the childish games we used to play when we were young until now.

but there's only three of us
thats the moon. actually we played with the camera so that the moon is elongated to a Nike sign

i look forward to lying there again<333

anybody willing to be childish with me?

2007-05-26T19:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday, smth terrible happened in our house

so terrible thats its beyond words=(

T.T

our refrigerator is sick

it happened when jingwen was very excited about eating the strawberry cheesecake icecream that has been lying in the fridge for dun-know-how-long

and she opens the tub and finds melted icecream leaking out

imagine how disappointed she is=(((

den she calls for her mum
which realises that the freezer is not working
5tubs of icecream has melted

omg

i waited so long for that moment
to savour the taste of strawberry cheesecake icecream

hai

the next day,
we have a prawn feast

cuz there are tons of prawns in the freezer which may go bad

just ate the strawberry cheesecake icecream
the icecream is all placed at my grandma's house freezer
and my parents went to get them on their way back to work

and guess wat?

i downed one tub of the icecream by myself just now
i had no choice=(

wat am i feeling now:
damn guilty
puking
sick of any food that has got to do with strawberry cheesecake or icecream

two lessons learnt- nvr stock up more than 2 tubs of icecream in your freezer because they will break down

and

food tastes nicer when there's ppl to fight with you over it=)

2007-05-25T20:28:00.000+08:00

last day of sch for semester one

but it doesnt feel like the last day of sch

cuz i still got tons of lessons and guzheng practices

ohwells T.T

hai, now i've got no excuses to run away

today went out with my sista, meiqi, jiayun and nicole=)!

they are so fun-loving

i want another date with them!

made me laugh so much

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DARLING SISTA!

below are some pictures!

me eating at pasta mania. jiayun took this picture

this is when i am too gei kiang. i added tons of tobasco sauce and ended up with swollen lips=(

us eating tons of food(especially my sista) she ate at least five kinds of food. hehs=)

me, sista,nicole and jiayun. where's the cold stoarge boss?=)

they are lesbians!=) just kidding lalol, famous cold storage boss with FA-faced sista.

one boss one slave=)))

2007-05-24T20:56:00.000+08:00

had guzheng today
practice new song
yao zhu=)
so nice!
ZHENGIII finally had solo!
only the front part actually
its just like one percent of the whole song

we having concert on 30th June!

please come support
anybody wants ticket for XINTHESIS?
10dollar each

anyway xinthesis is such a lame name
kaleidoscope is so much better

anyway we only perform for 12 minutes i think
Opera takes up one hour
u should be lucky that you get to see us for ten minutes!xD

treasure every minute of XMGZT.

den got 7practices in JUNE HOLS!
its killing us
f5

yaye! but i am happy.=)))))))))))))

2007-05-23T20:07:00.000+08:00

the person killing the squishy liquid is me! and my brother
the gal on top is my sister and charis
lol!

today is watching videos day at school

biology-watched the lives of many aquamarine creatures in the coral and tidal sea
english-watched MI3

den while the chinese ppl had intensive
we were in the library, boring ourselves
hai, i wish i had the chance to retake my cl
my regret for life...

tada, thats my life in school=)))

"Only selfish ppl will be so evil"
quoted from ms ng
who is referring to me right?
for hurting your favourite boy

ohya, and today while playing maple
some fcuking character called MagicZardz
demanded me to add his fame

okies, i admit i promise him i will up his fame
cuz that time i traded fame with ppl le
but today i up ppl fame le
den i cant up his
he insisted and threaten to report gm
report report la!
i got scam or scold vulgarities?

den, walao he go drop my fame
wtf!

you fame 32 le still so care about it

u think ppl want to up your fame cuz u are popular?
u force ppl to up your fame =(((
CHEATER!

oh watever~
today is full of un-nice stuff

and wtf!
i bought a bag for you and you refused to use it
u nvr knew how to appreciate my effort.x)
why did i bother den?
i am sadded=(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2007-05-22T19:29:00.000+08:00

changed the song

still, i love brown eyes by Destiny's Child

an excerpt from the song

如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异
我的笑她无法代替离开你
我才发现自己那爱笑的眼睛
流过泪像躲不过的暴风雨淋湿的昨天
删去(忘记)离开你
我才找回自己那爱笑的眼睛
再见爱情
我一定让自己让自己决定

thats wat i am feeling right now

2007-05-22T18:55:00.000+08:00

麻烦
麻烦
麻烦

did you really say that?

hate me all you want
i dun give a damn abt it

so wat if you had fall to the rock bottom and i decided to make you fall deeper?
u caused it yourself
i daresay i gave you alot of chances

i've learnt
when you want to judge ppl for their actions
please put yourself in their shoes
and think
if you were in the same situation, wld you have done the same?

we are all humans
we protect our loved ones
and tend to be selfish at that
can you understand?

2007-05-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

Same usual things happened today.
Checking exam scripts, digging for marks.
Yup, XD.
Disappointing results.

I've learnt many things. Really.
Especially my mistakes.
Everyone makes mistakes.
But, the most important thing is to learn from it and never repeat it again.
I won't. I will make sure the same old mistakes won't repeat anymore.
I regretted for all the things I did.
I'm sincerely sorry.

Forgiving is hard, but not forgiving is even harder.
(Sound familiar, it's from the smoking advertisment on the scary lady)
LOL.

I really have learnt.
I won't betray your trust again and cause tensions anymore.
I will honor my promise on not interfering in the matter at all.
I shall trust you to always come up with the solution for me.
I have regretted what I've done in the past.

It's glad for me to see that you've realised your mistakes, and trying to make things better.
It's glad that you've regretted your wrong actions.

I will never do things to betray your trust anymore.
Neither will I do things that will upset you.
I will honor what I promised you just now.
Everything shall be done out of initiative.
I do not need you to remind me anymore.
Yea, I won't even bother to msg a single letter to
strangers, nor will I reply at all.
See just delete.
A promise is a promise
Let's say I know that you won't feel
unhappy or upset when i reply
I also won't bother to breathe a single word or msg a single letter to
strangers because I know what I've got to do, and I know my limits.
Promises shall never be broken by me.
I'm very sure you'll do the same too right.
Hopefully, you know what's right and wrong.
I will no longer need you to remind me on what to do and
remind me of my mistakes anymore.
It will all just come automatically.
I will no longer need you to ask me to promise you anything
becauseI will be the one promising you initatively when there
is something to be promised.
I shall never lie to you too. I will be honest.
I promised I'll never lie to you and I will never break this promise.
i will never break any promises

Are you able to do that?
Hopefully, you'll be damn honest.

2007-05-19T19:32:00.000+08:00

some photos of yesterday!=)))

2007-05-18T19:52:00.000+08:00

okies
performance today was

no comments

i also dunno wat to say
or how we fared

but i enjoyed myself
at least better than syf where everything just happens
so fast

one more performance and thats it
we gonna step down
i dun feel like
i love the feeling of being part of the guzheng melody
trying my best to play my part well
and compliment the rest of the zhengs with wat we played
even though we are just base

but i love it

asked yuxin to take photos for us
me and my sister and her friends are working on some project
hehs, so we nd tons of photos

i want memories

got back more results today
disappointing
but improved in my english
so overall i am happy!=DDD

i am craving for ben and jerry's icecream now=(((
BADLY
Strawberry Cheesecake especially
its so nice!=)))
like you can nvr stop eating them once you start
even thought there are three tubs of icecream lying in the fridge
i bet mum will say i cant eat them
cause i have been eating icecream nonstop for the past few days
and she says its bad for health

hai.

so far yet so near
does that apply to our relationship too?

2007-05-17T20:08:00.000+08:00

got back my reaults today
one word to describe it
DISAPPOINTING

well, i think its my worst midyr ever
lol, the only consolation that i can come up with is that i only start revision seriuosly is five days before the exams

ohwells T.T

nvm

guzheng today
was fun!xD

tmr, we going to perform in sch
we rarely perform in sch leh
so give us a loud round of applause to support us tmr if we done well.=)))

i LOVE guzheng

schooling is so sian recently
everyday's just chinese
i cant stand it
no learning new stuffs
just keep on doing doing doing
:((((
my life's meaningless.

2007-05-16T19:23:00.000+08:00

Some pictures of yesterdayshe keeps blowing
and blowing
and blowing! LOL,its relightable candles.
our picture together! i think thats the only picture that the sevenofus took togetherxD
from the left, munling, limin,wanling,ruimin,bel, germaine and me!xD
I love them! <3333!

we made this for mothers' day. the one above is made by my sister! isnt it nice?
I LOVE IT!

2007-05-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

was a sian day again
we did a bao zhang bao dao on the importance of learning chinese
i think thats all.

Happy Birthday, RUIMIN!

shall upload the pictures of ruimin blowing the candles tmr
i dunno wats wrong with blogger
cause i go close my post when the pictures are still uploading
den i tried to upload four or five times but still cannot
hai
" you are dumb" quoted from munling
am i?

end up we dun have a performance on 18may
we having performance on 30th june in the drama center in the natinal library
we will be learning new songs!xD
and our practice starts this thurs
ooh, i missed them so much!<3333 color="#33ccff">Over it by Katharine McPhee
I’m over your lies
And I’m over your games
I’m over you asking me
When you know I’m not okay
You call me at night
And I pick up the phone
And though you be tellin’ me I know you’re not alone

Oh and that’s why your eyes
I’m over it
Your smile
I’m over it
Realized
I’m over it, I’m over it
I’m over

Wanting you to be wanting me
No that ain’t no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I’m so over (I’m so over it
) Movin’ on and it’s my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I’m so over
I’m so over it

I’m over your hands
And I’m over your mouth
Trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt
Oh and that’s why your world
I’m over it
So sure I’m over it
I’m not your girl
I’m over it, I’m over it
I’m over

Wanting you to be wanting me
No that ain’t no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I’m so over (I’m so over it)
Moving on and it’s my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I’m so over
So over it
I’m so over it

Don’t call, Don’t come by
Ain’t no use don’t ask me why
You’ll never change
There’ll be no more crying in the rain
No, Oh oh I’m over it

i love this song!xD

2007-05-14T18:29:00.000+08:00

just back from the dentist

my mouth is still very numb

and swollen

but gd news is...

the doctor is going to remove the braces soon!

YAYE!=DDD

I am absolutely happy!

today damn sian la

we dun have chinese o levels yet we have to stay back until 3.30pm for lessons

which in my opinion is not constructive at all

i felt like sleeping most of the time

Friday

went with munling bel and wanling to orchard

we started at wisma atria

ate at food republic

look at the the mess they made at the table using melted ice kachang(doesnt it look like a ghost?) i didnt contribute to it!

at heeren, look at how distorted we are!xD

COWGALS!

i LOVE STRAWBERRY ICECREAM!

Walked the three quarters if orcharch, to plaza sing

mainly to shop for presents!=)))

and to help my father check prices

lol, i feel like a spy

den met up with my sister

who has been diligently at spotlight doing mothers' day present for our mum

its damn nice la!

Saturday

met up with limin and munling

for KBOX.

hehs, i realised how outdated i am

cause all the songs they singing are new

and i am always singing the old songs

but i enjyed myself

well

den later met up with wanling

for spiderman3!

i love spiderman!

its so meaningful

Quotable quotes

"who are you?" MJ asks Peter Parker as he gets violent

"i think your uncle doesnt want us to hate

okies, i forgot the rest

but it means hatred leads to nowhere

went to far east to find my parents and we went home

SUNDAY

finally went to my grandma house

enjoy her food!=)))

but before that,

went to sim lim to get a new camera

sony presents

the cybershot DSC T100

Vertical is Ravishing

i completely love this camera!

its so sleek!

den my father bought a 4 gig memory card for the psp

means can download lots more games!

2007-05-07T19:55:00.000+08:00

i got stm memory
i forgot everything that i memorised abt biology
and now its information overload.
hai
LIFE
IS
STRESSFUL

i wish it was back to 280606
a year ago
that i met you
i would make sure things will nvr turn out the way it is now
trust me
i will
perhaps all this is too late
ppl only konw how to treasure their loved ones when they're gone

2007-05-05T20:31:00.000+08:00

bored-
can somebody rescue me from boring earth?
den we shall go live on the stars!~
away from everything from life
we can see the stars every second=))))

2007-05-04T20:15:00.000+08:00

are human more superior than other animals?
yes, we are
we have the right to keep animals in zoo

but why are we so?
cause we got BRAINS!
to think

lol, i was studying biology, thats why

Physics paper today
but i dun think i scored well
i forgot to label ac current
and i dunno wats a load resistor
hai
looks like i am not going to score well in any of my subjects

life been meaningless lately
just exam
go home
study
stay up late to cram everything
worry about exam
next day
wake up
tired
go sch
exam

its just like the same cycle everyday
furthermore, i dun even want to get my results back

"Death is wat makes life meaningful"
quoted from mr arthur lim

is that so?
i am so going to die in the future
but does that make my life more meaningful?
do we even have time to enjoy the joys of life?
i dunno
everyday's just studying abt something which
is going to let me live forever?
lol
if everybody's going to die
wat's the use of studying anyway?

i realised i am damn fickleminded
sometimes i miss you
sometimes i love you
sometimes i forgive
sometimes i hate
i hate this love/hate relationship
stupid brain and heart.X(

2007-05-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

just took a break from studying
lol
actually, i am very distracted by my brother playing maple
meanwhile i was looking thru some prelims physics paper
by ACS, Anderson and Chinese high
when i saw the paper i was like ...
All the questions are damn difficult
i dun even know how to attempt so i straight away looked at the answer sheet
hehs

plus, this is my worse mid-yr =(((
today de amaths paper, i left three blanks
not to say a few qns which were half-done
i stared at the matrix question for 10mins
but still dunno how to do
walao, mind-blocked

i realised all my papers, i havent been able to fully complete them
nvm, shall chiong for prelims then

Hehs, guzheng going to perform on 18may!
in sch
well, that may be my last performance but i am looking forward to it
the same forty ppl! <333

"Men can't do without women because of their feminism"
by Sidney Sheldon
well, is that true?
guys will have to answer it

hais, my mixed feelings
something's telling me that i shouldnt dwell too much
but its killing me

2007-05-01T19:41:00.000+08:00

munling came to my house and we study physics and maths together
hai
my mood swings
when will they go away?
i once thought we would last forever
apparently, it wasnt so
but...

i hate to shed anymore tears
but they are coming to me every evening
hai

2007-04-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

yea, i am being petty
but i feel like it
hate me if you want =/

2007-04-30T18:55:00.000+08:00

today is the start of exams =(((
english paper today
actually the topic quite easy to write
but i dun have time
i wrote abt courage
abt a boyfriend being to overpossessive of his galfriend
hai
actually wanted to write the depth of love the gal has
but not enough time
so just anyhow write lo
so not my style la
i keep on having one sentence paragraphs
eg.
i never possess the courage to fight for wat i want.i never had to fight for my dreams or passion

they come to me.

LOL. Sounds so assertive
but thats nvr me
den end up the gal also nvr stand up to the guy
sadded=(((
sure score very low
so anticlimax

while for my compre, i wrote very stupid answers
everybody was like laughing at my answers

after sch when to study at hg mall macdonald
munling taught me transformation!
actually its quite easy
all about joining pts together
but was stumped at some rate of change qn
my confidence is lowered =(((
jingwen will continue to work hard! =DDD
me and munling at mac <333

look at the mess we created =)

x! *dun take pictures of me!*

my last year trigonometry test. i got full marks!
but this yr like nvr get full marks anymre =(((

munling is growing double eyelids =)))
so amazing!

saw some very astonishing xinmin ppl together today

hai, i hate you to laugh with him

2007-04-29T17:10:00.000+08:00

just took a break from studying

i am feeling better though just now i am having a slight headache
LOL,I KNOW HOW TO DO MATHS QNS!
AND I GOT 70% OF THE QUESTIONS CORRECT.

thats considered an achievement since i just started amaths revision yesterday

lol, i miss going to my grandma house
i miss my grandma
and her YUMMY FOOD.
i think i have been eating dapao everyday
cuz my dad's cargo arrived and he needs to get it packed as fast as possible
so no time to cook
today's instant noodles again

i also managed to revise the biology topics taught this year!
yaye!

2007-04-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

pls go youtube search xinmin guzheng
got our guzheng practice video!
yaye=)))
enjoy!

2007-04-28T20:43:00.000+08:00

some random pictures munling took this while wer were at the prata shop after revising maths in sch
what am i thinking? i dunno ><

munling helping me carry my tote cuz i was carrying too much stuffs on my hand. thanks, munling! but she look ALAF. =)))

Arent the rainbows on the road nice?
i like rainbows, they signifies happiness
something which is lost

i took this photo today cuz i was too bored with my amaths. isnt my brother hardworking and cute? LOL=))

I am sorry

2007-04-28T20:22:00.000+08:00

DAMN FRUSTRATED
I LOST MY BIOLOGY FILE
HOW AM I GOING TO STUDY?
WTH!

okies la, its my fault for losing the file
i thought it was at home
den today i wanted to study
but could not find the file
its all my fault

hai, today justs a bad day
realise how much i dunno
things that i have touch yet:
emaths
chemistry
physics( i given up)

i think this gonna be my worse mid-yr ever
plus, even though i revised my amaths
i realise i forgot and dunno how to my maths
i've got nobody to turn to

can someone help me please?
i am so gonna die
and on the verge of a breakdown
hai

when will my mood swings stop? =(((

seriously, can someone help me?

2007-04-26T20:23:00.000+08:00

This is my 28th post =)
28 is a significant number to me

today had guzheng feedback session
was a fun but tiring day ba
was trying very hard to keep myself awake
was watching a dvd mr thum bought
it was so nice!
there was a guy who could produce music using rocks

and it was very tribal

can't believe that i am gonna leave guzheng after these four years
i am so going to miss guzheng
at least maybe, perhaps we are going to have a combined concert with the other ccas!
YAYE! :DDDDD
The last performance
it will nvr be the same forty ppl again
plus our farewell party is coming
or rather i prefer camp
at least this time its not me who's in charge
i can enjoy!
FINALLY!

sadded too
have to leave guzheng!
hai

2007-04-25T21:48:00.000+08:00

i think the teacher really put in alot of effort for this syf too
Mr thum ,ms sun, ms phan and mrs teh!!

mixed feelings again-

2007-04-25T21:19:00.000+08:00

us with ms SUN!

Ms PHAN!

we are the "L" gang. Right,yuling?
the three best friends

our group photo. this 40 ppl in this photo may not be on stage performing again =(((
munling took this. we were mimicking the last part of sai4 ma3 where we had to do dramatic breathing!

This is when i have enough sleep, no dark eyes circles!
thats's when i dun have enough sleep. LOL, actually its all the same, just different angles

me and limin!!!=)

2007-04-25T20:10:00.000+08:00

we got GOLD!=DDD

Yaye! =))

we are happy!

i was late for guzheng

cuz i took too much time putting on my foundation

LOL, L'oreal true match foundation rocks!

Looks so natural! Hehe

den went to sch

get to skip sch whole day!

den wore makeup

warmup, tuning, break

and den loading up the guzheng

and finally reaching singapore conference hall

we hugged

and encouraged each other

and we finally got to perform infront of the judges

our hardwork for this four mths had finally paid off!

but it all happened in a few minutes

a tad too fast

i think at least we did our best

and it depends on the judges opinions

when they announced PLMGS and Nanyang girls got gold with honours

and all the rest silver

we were shocked

and uncertain

we held each other's hands and waited for the results

the announcer: ximin, gold

we kind of waited for 5secs for the announcer to say "with honours!"

but he didnt

hai

could say that we were quite down-spirited

cuz we wanted gold with honours

gold was okaye =/

but i guess we didnt do well enough

我们没有大将之风。

i was disappointed *bummed*

PLMGS cheered for us, to our surprise

so we cheered back

they got sportsmanship!

got back to sch and everybody and we cheered again

den spent half hour deciding on where to go for lunch

and were taking tons of photos with everybody

cuz this may be our last performance, ever again

sadded=(

went pizza hut

we told the person "table for 30"

almost all the performing ppl and assistants came

and we, guzheng ppl had a FUN TIME together!

even if we didnt get wat we want

i think through all this practices together,

we are bonded tightly

everybody was having fun.

just look at all the photos!

Faces

Certificate of participation “没脸见人”

Bronze face Silver face *Langston acting cool!"Gold face *too happy* 难得的笑容

Next up is Pearlene!

Pearlene's gold face

Pearlene's MUQIN'S FACE! =))) WE WERE LAUGHINING LIKE CRAZY!

ZHENG III X-Women! Favian's a transexual! LOL, just kidding!Me with Valerie at the bus stop! Valerie got the long neck syndrome!Munling ALAF-ing AGAIN. hai, as expected. when will she grow up? speaak no evil! she speaks the loudest at pizza hut!

2007-04-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

“到了另个村，就没有这间店。”
quoted by mr thum
this quote is inspiring
it means that once you miss an opportunity, it will nvr come back again
every note in guzheng is special
thats why we must play carefully
we only have one chance to move the judges

we must make sure that our hard work for four months must pay off =DDD
ms phan said we managed to move her!
thats an achievement
and ppl are smiling

Tomorrow is D-Day!
we will do our best! =)))

have to wake up st 5.30am tmr
den put on foundation
set off by 6am
and reach sch at 6.15am

i am supposed to sleep early today
may my eye bags disappear tmr

no returning to class after that,
just straight away move to singapore conference hall
my guzheng is like my 老公！
throughout the trip i am supposed to take precious care of my 老公！
i want to see you before i go

古筝加油！=DDD
为新民古筝团爭气！

we have tried our best, let the judges and fate decide for tmr =DDD
i'm sure our effort will pay off

like wat mr thum has said,
love is like the same

2007-04-23T21:14:00.000+08:00

today guzheng was a solemn affair
cause mr thum was in a hurry?
he rushed to the hall at 4pm
he was late

gave us tons of advice
cause syf just so near
TWO MORE DAYS TO SYF!!!
our performance sucks
due to the hall?
cuz everything sounds so scattered and messy
hai =(((

Xinmin badminton won the sports sch today!
National first!
Congrats :DDD
every cca seems to have their own great achievements =D
ofcuz i am happy for them
but

guzheng doesnt seem to have anything yet
perhaps thats yet to come
its coming in two days
may god bless us *i am praying hard and working hard*

But recently i think guzheng ensemble has became closer
zhengIII is as bonded as ever!
my sister took two videos of us
and we later looked at it and discussed with our zheng our mistakes

From the video, zhengIII is moving as a team
and everybody's looking up
at least our action is better than last week!
Yaye! :DDD

i hate being misunderstood :(((
Puh-leeasse
i am not a bootlicker
as the management head, i am supposed to make ppl do their duty
LOL, but i think i damned slack la
i nvr even bother to do the duties myself
finally got one person in the class volunteer to do class duty
i just said something nice of that person and somebody called me a bootlicker
hai
i dunno wat to say la T.T

i finally finished the thermal physics of the tys
*claps*
thats the only MYE revision that i did

btw, do you want your amaths tys back?
有人对我说：“是时候放手了。”
我懂。总有一天我也得放手。
但我不要，我希望我永远不用放下。
放手是件很难的事，
得从心里挖出我对你的思念
是件超痛苦的事。=(((
but fate wants me to do so
just let nature take its course
hai

Factors cannot be factorised
equations are factorised and from there you get factors

2007-04-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

oh watever.
-mixed feelings
sometimes, i just dunno wat i am feeling
or rather dun wish to acknowledge it

cause i know i am not supposed to acknowledge it
too many factors are pulling us apart
perhaps i will nvr see again after 28may
it hurts my heart =(((((

2007-04-22T18:21:00.000+08:00

perhaps you are right
i shouldnt blame everything on you=(((

today is a sunday
but i nvr go grandma house
cuz i nd to study for mid-yr
i did some physics tys

Syf day is coming!
in 3days time =))) =(((

den played metal slug 5 with my brother
my brother was so lonely
MeiQi and Charis came to our house to use the computer for their PW
end up my brother cannot use computer
so beg me play metal slug with him
It's addicting! =DDD

how happpyy was i =DDD

i didnt mean to blame you
you always blamed me first whenever you did wrong
i didnt know why i let you blame me
perhaps, i am stupider than you in this kind of stuffs
but as i thought over and over
i just realise one thing
not all things are my FAULT

2007-04-21T20:48:00.000+08:00

i wish to apologise for my previous post
shouldnt have talked too much
sorry. =(((
i hope you all will forgive me

Today was boring
as usual just slept alot and revise some of my physics

and was worrying abt guzheng
just damn scared
i wish syf would pass soon
but i also dun want to step down

LOL. stupid dilemma=(((

on syf day, i have to wake up by 5.30am
den reach sch by 6.15
hai

please dun make me hate you anymre
please dun make me give up hope
please dun make me detest you for threatening
pls dun
i know from the bottom of my heart, you are still you
the guy i knew on 28june

as i walked past the places that we once went
it dawned on me how happy we once were
yes,we were a happy couple
but you cose to ruin it with your ears and mouth
i ruin it by my attitude
now,i walk alone
without your words
without your hands
its now cold=(((

btw,you have no right to say macon sucks
cuz you are like him

2007-04-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

we went to a hawker centre to eat,as there too much ppl ordering from that hawker, my brother has to wait very long.. look at his impatient face. LOL!look at him, eating so fast as if there's no tmr, muz be damn hungry from waiting too long

today was a tiring day for me

had guzheng at three

i was dismissed at one thirty so went to 4-05 and munling taught me how to read passages with intonation and stuff like that.

LOL, I realised i suck at reading

den for the last half hour i was sleeping on the table cuz i was tired

i nd to wake up per five minutes so that i won't drool on the table.

den when for guzheng

zhengIII was outside

we ended up in the back corridor

it was hot

and i was sweating like crazy

and thats gonna be the last fenzhu we'll ever have anymre.

our performance wasnt really very good.

Vanessa and Evelyn talked to us

our guzheng ensemble cannot do without zhengIII=)))

we, zhengIII are important

without us, they'll have no one to fill in the blanks

and the sai4 ma3 man4 ban3 without us is like so plain and tasteless

thats why we muz all do our best for syf!

motivate ourselves to improve

i feel like crying at that time=(((

i realise i have been given tons of pep talk recently

yes, all if the words have gone into my mind

i will try my best on everyday of my life to make the best out of it :D

i will pick myself up after a fall

i will motivate myself

Afterall, we only live once

and this syf is once-in-a-lifetime experience

your last performance with xinmin

perhaps years later, we'll nvr get together again.

the same 40 ppl who has worked hard for this syf

you'll never get get the exact same ppl to perform on the same stage again

so we muz try our very very very best!

that's why i nd your support on the syf day

LOL

I am giving pep talks too

thanks, i receive your apology :D

there is no need for us to be together

i seriously nd a rest

a gd one

but perhaps by the time i finished my rest, you'll be gone.

that doesnt matter

i am used to being me

even if i cant smile from the bottom of my heart

i dun mind

cuz i know if i dun have enough rest

i will be like the attitude me again in the relationship

i dun wanna ruin our second relationship

so i rather be more confident first

even if i am sad

i dun wish to cause any harm to anyone anymore

and waste our second chance

hope you'll understand=(

2007-04-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

Let nature take its course
that was wat mr thum said to us.

Comgratulations to choir for clinching the gold award in syf! =DDD

now all the pressure is on us
to deliver a gold with honours for the sch
is that possible?
i doubt so.
i dunno why i dun have faith in myself

"self fulfilling prophecy"
if we think we cann get gold with honours den we can
"because the mind is stronger than the body"
those in quotations are wat munling said everytime.
Yes, Jingwen can do it!=DDD
thats wat we shld think.

the teachers and mr thum keep telling us that getting whatever award for the syf does not matter.
as if la.
dun ms phan and ms sun feel the pressure?
we already feel the pressure.
not getting a least a gold is gonna be so embarassing for us.

oh watever-

my feet is seriously rotting
look at the photo

pus is oozing out every second xDDD
"LOL but, BUT I LOVE IT!!~" munling said
is so eew lor.
its getting so itchy that i feel like scratching it every millisecond.

i dunno why, i just scratch it and wounds started appearing.

hai, tmr still have guzheng
i am so god-damned pressurized
sometimes i just feel like crying.

LOL, I am becoming more of a crybaby recently

like when mr thum and the seniors talked to us, i felt like crying for dunno watever reason.

i am not attitude
i cant release them, it would be hell-broken loose
i wont feel better, it just makes me feel worser if i ever let them out
its not that i dun wanna stay unhappy
i mean who dun want be happy?
i cant, making myself happy would be bringing myself harm in the long run
i know we cant last long den wat for?
plus it would be making my family worried for me
i already vowed by my dad, an unbreakable swear.
no matter wat, i wont break it anymore.
my happiness doesnt matter so much
i got so used to being the person i am now that it doesnt matter anymore
a smile from me from the bottom of my heart is impossible

yes, when can we hold hands and walk down the roads that is so familiar to us?
yes, i cant taste your yummy food anymore
yes,i couldnt see your smile anymore
yes,i cannot cuddle by your side when i am sad
yes, i cant go out with you anymore
yes,i cant celebrate your birthday together as i promised you
yes, you were my everything
yes, you are still my everything.

2007-04-18T20:10:00.000+08:00

i cant believe until now you are still lying to me.
i saw your blog la. walao.
I am DAMN PISSED OFF BY YOU!!!
dun think i so not resourceful la
i tell you, u better dun change it again or you will have no haribo for the rest of your life!

today sucks too.
seriously i wonder, is there anyday which i am happy the whole day?
the answer is no. HAI=(((
i want to be happy again.

Congratulations to the xinmin dance troupe for getting gold with honours!!!=DDD
First performing grp in xinmin to clinch the gold with honours

after hearing the news, i feel so... dunno how to say.
worried?
cuz i know guzheng getting gold is already a problem.
gold with honours? unless a miracle happens *pray hard*
i bet everybody expects us to come back from syf with a gold with honours
but i afraid thats impossible.
well, unless we work hard!!xD

went home super early today cuz got no chinese oral
guess wat?
my dad went down to town to look at Rolex watches.walao
i was locked out of my house
end up i had to wait there for half hour before my father came with the key to rescue me.
i cried meanwhile=/
i know its so stupid la, after i hang up on the phone with my dad, i started crying uncontrollably.
and i typed wat i felt in my phone:(LOL, pls dun laugh)
i am feeling so upset now.
i dunno why.
jus felt very lonely cuz got no one to accompany me.
seriously, my life just sucks
i got so much things to handle
so much things to think about
so many emotions that i am going through right now
i wish i can dun nd to care and think abt you everytime i got nth on my mind
i kept on thinking abt wat will happen to you
wat should we have done in the past.
yes, i've fallen but i dun even want to cheer myself on anymore.
i just feel like staying on the ground forever.
it makes me feel better
yes, it does
just lying there, there's no need to put on a brave front anymore
cuz its so hard to hide away my feelings.( unlike you who have mastered it)

lol. i seriously think that something's wrong with me at that time.
i couldnt control,
like everything just flows out of my head

2007-04-17T20:48:00.000+08:00

its so hard to say "i love you" and not draw back tears
its so hard to think of you and fall asleep at night
its so hard to see you around happily and realise that you will be gone soon
its so hard...=(((
But no matter wat life carries on with the mid yr and syf coming.
hai, i heard that our guzheng standard yesterday was only silver.
its so hard to improve
its so hard, its so hard, its so hard
i wish time stops here..
den i dun nd to go syf, mid year exams and see you leave me
lol, today, i heard that you were smiling secretly to yourself when you receive the letter
that makes me wonder, wat makes you laugh...
it makes me happy too=DDD
Please be happy forever!

i updated the "if i were a guy". i was thinking abt it today and added some new stuffs!=DDD
Jingwen work hard, Jingwen is always behind you!

2007-04-17T20:22:00.000+08:00

today my father is back!

and he bought some nice stuffs=DDD!

and finally got some decent food to eat

or i am like surviving on instant noodles everyday.

A Playstation Portable from HongKong with tons of game preloaded in it!

Some pictures!

Sleek and black! so nice to hold. i love the white strap!

in its case!

so nice, i cant believe its on my hands!

got games like Gundam seed and winning eleven!

LOL, my next goal is PS3!!

may my father buy that soon. *wish*

Still got some weird wallet

lol,i am gonna show you some magic.

open, put the two dollar note on the surface. close it and

TADA!! the note is binded by the straps

i am so fascinated by this la. everybody like asking me why i so excited

i nvr see this before thats why. my father bought like six and gave us each of us one.

my wallet for the time being, i know i will lose it anyway. LOL=DDD

Still, i love the PSP!!!

2007-04-16T19:51:00.000+08:00

today guzheng was fine.

we were briefed on wat to do on the the actual syf day.
den watch videos of ppl playing drums.
using drums to express their story.
lol, very nice!~
to imply that with a guzheng, which has 21 strings.
we are supposed to express ourselves better?
lol, mr thum today was so agitated conducting sai ma that he fall from the conductor stand
but managed to regain balance.
didnt fall sick cuz i slept a lot yesterday.
but my fingers are hurting cuz use my left hand too much=/
lol, zhengIII is base ma. muz have rou4 de4 sheng1 yin1.

i finished this book! damned nice can!~

this book is about this gal named cassandra whose parents divorced two years ago.
and her brother, tom, her only form of support left went to live with his friends in university.
she gets to know this bad influence called macon who is a dropout
macon is like form of escape and support for her.
but macon is too overprotective.
he wants cassandra to skip sch to accompany him.
he wants cassandra to smoke
he gives cassandra a tattoo on her shoulder.
cuz Macon's philosophy in life is " you cant stay clean forever"
when cassandra refused to skip sch
he hits her, no apology given afterwards.
when cassandra tells him abt her brother
Macon believes that she lied.
he hits her. no apology
when they argue, macon nvr gives in
he hits her. no apology
and finally she finds an escape to her so called "fairytale"
and tada! she's happy again.

i just simply love this book!~
so motivating la
but some parts are just so sad...=(((
Macon sucks!!!!

thats why if i were a guy
i would nvr nvr hit a gal! ( if i ever did, i rather go die)
i would nvr be too overprotective
i would nvr lead her astray
i would nvr love her only for her looks
i would nvr force her to do anything against her wish
i would nvr threaten heri would nvr smash her dreams for her for my own selfish reasons
i would nvr break wat i promise her
i would nvr scold her vulgarities

i would nvr make her go against her conscience and values just to make me happy

i would love her for who she is
i would make her happy every second thats she's with me
i would protect her and make sure she nvr goes to harm
i would compromise
i would support and accomapny her when she's sad
i would put her in first place in all my actions
i would cook lots of yummy food for her to enjoy
i would not get jealous so easily
i would be considerate to her feelings.

And we would live happily ever after!~

LOL, if there exists such a person...
wow, the gal he likes would be so blessed.
but this kind of person happpen cuz everybody's selfish.
everybody only cares abt how they feel.

thanks for showing care and concern for me
i dread 28may=(((

2007-04-15T12:22:00.000+08:00

without you...
without you console me
without you to cheer me up
without you to accompany me
without your jokes
without your food
without your presence
without your smile
without your voice
without you acting cute
without your promises

when i am sad...
without you, everything sucks.
when will i be able to embrace you again?
i know i can't

2007-04-14T18:20:00.000+08:00

today sucks.
i was woken up by bel's phonecall and realised that all the fishes died.
wat i said yesterday came true.
i dun even wanna go school to see how many lives of the fishes i have killed.
but in the end dragged myself to sch.
munling was there with germaine and.. lol, i forgot cuz i just woke up.
end up not all died.
they think all died but actually some of them were actually sleeping sideways.(weird)
they died cuz they got stuck into the oxygen pumps, den the pump cannot work and more died due to lack of oxygen.
hai.

homecoming day was okies.
fishy attracted lots of young kids.
some of the fishes really swam very fast
so we helped them by pushing the fishes to them.
thanks, limin, germaine, junyang, jiaqi, khee ern, geraldine, hwee yin,yongle, yuting,andrew chia for helping out today!
fishy earns $525.50
i know its not much.
i was disappointed la.=(((
past two years it was 700 to 800 plus.
so i cried on my way home.
i know its stupid=/
but i cant help myself.
perhaps all along its only me who's walking the road alone.
2e4 was less united than i thought
perhaps it's because if my rudeness.
i tried my best to be polite.
i tried my best.
yet, the results...

i am still feeling sad.
but whatevr-
wat's done is done la.

our class stall earned $600+!
yaye=)))!
i am getting so addicted to the brand of instant noodles my mum brought recently.
i think i've eaten three packets since tues.
cuz my mum sucks at cooking.
i dun care if all my hair drops off.=)))

i was thinking of starting my revision today but i got no mood today...
i bet i am so gonna lose my position in class.
lol, haven really revise anything yet.

yes, this will be my last memory

you gave them to me
it belongs to me.
i rather give it away to someone who will take care of it, and treasures it.
not like you.
now, they are all gone.
its a load off my mind.

i rmb the jigsaw puzzle
it was your christmas present from me
i spent hours thinking and thinking of something meaningful.
finally i thought of the puzzle.
i asked li min and mun ling to accompany me go buy it.
i bought something that shows a future of us together
i took it home
spend time putting the pieces together and framed it up.
so you know how much time and effort i put in?
i loved it alot.
yet on christmas, the first thing you did when you go home is to put the puzzle on the staircase and play your
when i called you
u said that the edge of the frame was bent.
your mum step on it
TEE HOON CHENG STEPPED ON IT!
when i heard that, i was sadded.
yet all i said was nvm.
did you even treasure it?
i bet your computer game is more impt than the puzzle.
oh watever-
den later you let some other ppl to bend it.
if you treasure it, you would try your best to not let it get spoilt.
you would try your best to repair it.
you would keep it in the best condition
oh whatever-
now that its gone.

when will you ever learn your mistake?

2007-04-13T19:50:00.000+08:00

i am seriously becoming weak
i dun even have the energy to walk to sch today.
hai
my back and shoulder still hurts and i am feeling lethargic all day in sch
den just now walk home from seranggon ave2 or 1, i forgot.
already feel like dying..
i dun feel like walking to sch tmr
but i have to.. carry a electric kettle and reach at 7.30am somemore.=(((((((((((((((((

perhaps setting up fishy was a mistake
the stress is taking its toll on me.
the fishes all swim so slow
den if tmr we lose money how to account to everybody?
den quite alot of guys dun wanna help out
hai, left the gals there.
A few of the fishes died.
one of them the tail kind of fall off?
eew..,me and munling damned scared den we asked khee ern to scoop it up for us.
walao. den he scoop up and scared me with the fish until we agreed to go with him to buy fish nets.
but he was very helpful too!
thanks, junyang,khoon liang,khee ern,cun kuang,andrew chia,germaine,limin,geraldine,ann gee, kah meng,yong le, yie sheng, shannon, yu ting and teck guan!
for helping out today.
gd luck for fishy tmr!
the fishes all like not enough oxygen, keep swimming to the surface.
may the fish dun die tmr! *fingers crossed*

case scenario two
guyA was emotional on one day
so decided to talk to guyB and guyC(diff guys from the scenario one) who sits near galA in class.
on whether galA was flirting with them
then guyB and C scared that guyA would be angry and throw something at them.
they decided to defend themselves.
started saying things like "is she start talking to us first.
we nvr wanted to talk to her"
so guyA got very angry with her and
started scolding her for being a flirt.
wth!
all that galA knows is that she nvr really speak to guyB and C.
only speak when neccessary. like passing papers or wat.
even if got talk is also the guys take initiative.
when galA dun wanna apologise for smth that she nvr do.
guyA got really angry and started screaming or wat
in the end, galA have to apologise even if she NVR did wrong.

guyA is really damn guo4 fen4 can?
like got no problems go find problems,
and how can he trusts his friends more than he trusts his galfriend?
plus does this friends help him at all times?
no.
he always tell galA. no matter wat i will trust you. i promise.
did he ever fulfill his promise?

plus guyB and C is damned selfish.
rather sabotaged other ppl relations rather than get beaten up.
does destroying other ppl relations make them so happy?
walao.
and guyA so stupid go believe them.

some guys are just like that.
so..
hai, dunno wat words to use la.
just that no matter wat, gals are always in the wrong
plus guys always help their friend even though their friend in the wrong and put all the blame on their galfriends.
wat kind of world is this?

thanks for all the things that u've done for me
they are very sweet
i really appreciate it
u want haribo tmr?
i miss your smile thats specially for me

2007-04-12T20:30:00.000+08:00

my brother's tiger barb died. and there are tons are fish food sticking on to it. eew...it was alive and well a few days ago.

hai,sadded-

i am falling sick.
cuz i was overstretched today and not enough sleep.
hai.
my head is heavy and hurting me too much.
my fingers and toes are cold.
my shoulder,hand and my legs are tired.
my back hurts.
i have an ulcer in my mouth.
i feel like puking.
worse of all my feet is rotting.

have to take panadol.
i hate panadol
makes me more wanna puke.
plus my mum says nd to take 2tablets.
OMG!=((((

anyway i am gonna dissolve the panadol in water.
cuz i cant swallow.
eew...
nvm, crushing the tablets increase the surface area for fast reaction.
LOL.( learnt that in chem today)
so tmr i shall recover for preparation of homecoming day.
or else munling says she gonna die if i not there tmr.
guys are not gonna help us from the looks of it.
nvm la. perhaps i pissed them off too much ba.
i am gonna move the buckets from 4-05 to the canteen.
so heavy!

guzheng is so tiring but so NICE!
i love the actions.
when playing sai4 ma3, can really see everybody moving forward.
Mr thum says that if we get gold is an extra bonus,silver also can.
hai.

i want gold badly.
if we get silver, it would be letting the seniors down.
today the seniors came and said that they very buay guam wan that they nvr get gold with honours.
so we have to fulfill their and ours dream.
but the song still got lots of flaws.
I must buck up!=)))

the last one hour i already wanna die le.

i am too tired to post scenario two

gonna eat panadol soon.
wish me luck.

2007-04-11T18:54:00.000+08:00

have u receive the paper?
i hope that encourages u.

i just realise that some of the things you blame me for is not my Fault!

case scenario one
it was camp. guy A has a galfriend galA.
since guyA has to leave camp by 6am
he wants gal A to sccompany him until 6am.
arent that selfish?
it was 1am.
GuyA wanted to play soccerwith guyB and guyC.
so he made galA wait by the side for him to finish playing.
hours passed and it was3am.
GalA was tired so she told guyA.
"can i go back dorm and sleep?
I slept at 1am yesterday, plus tmr i in charge"
GuyA replied" one last game"
GalA agreed and waited for him to finish his game
meanwhile galA kind of asked them to be faster.
after one game they wanted another game.
this time galA was really very tired.
she said" i going up le, to sleep"
this time guyA very buay song.
at the side guyb and guyc said "walao,why she like that one? Like that also dun want to accompany you."
GuyA gets very angry and started shouting. in the end guya force galA NOT to sleep for whole day.

WTH! guyA is so god-damned selfish la
if he knows he going off at 6am
he should have spent the time playing soccer to accompany galA.
later perhaps art 3 or 4 should have let her go sleep.
If you cared about her, you won't have forced her not to go sleep
you would worry abt whether she gets enough sleep ornot.
this just shows one thing.
soccer is more impt than galA.
thed wat for have galA accomanying him?

Btw, guyB, guyC,
just who do you think you are to comment on galA?
yes,they have girlfriends too.
but do their girlfriends even take the effort to stay awake for their sake?
den wat right do you have to add fuel to fire?

I jus think that some guys are just too guo4 fen4.
always want to tiao1 po4 li1 jian1.
see other ppl galfriend did a small mistake.
critisize her until like she damn slut like that.
den made them had a cold war or wat?
u just want to make your own friends unhappy
why so nosy got butt into other ppl's business
walao.
watever.
i wont let myself be a victim of such sort anymre.
i wont let myself be critisized anymre...
yaye! i am free!

i will continue case scenario two tmr.
need to go study le.

2007-04-10T18:30:00.000+08:00

my dad went overseas today.
Yaye!
I want new ps2 games and stuffs!

we put up the adverts.
Fishy!?
Design by munling and coloured by past 2e4 ppl.
LOL.
i told ms abey abt our plan
Cuz she's my oral practice session teacher.
wat if she saw the adverts and question me?
OMG.
so i told her in advance.

Den got dental appointment at 4.30pm
this time the dentist very nice.
only made me wait for half hour.
Break record le
the dentist still want me to put the braces on longer.
Hai.
Plus i need to use rubber band to pull my teeth down.
den there were some missing bands on my teeth
I guessed i swallowed it le ba.
LOL, I bet now it's still in my stomach.
he wanted to put alternate colour for me
green yellow green yellow green.
Eew..
I protested so now my braces is one jaw one colour.

yes, i missed you not being there.
but i guess it's time for us to get over it.

2007-04-10T18:10:00.000+08:00

I will never apologise.
It's not my fault.
I am just paying you back with your own medicine.
I tolerated with your nonsense for one and a half months.
You were sulky, you were angry, you were unreasonable.
You are more guo4 fen4 than me.
You asked me to quit guzheng for you.
So that i can spend more time with you.
Have you realised how selfish you were?
Please remember, entering the syf has been my dream since sec1.
I was so near the dream and i am not gonna let you shatter it for me.
No matter, how unreasonable you were to me, i tolerated.

It's a test.
I was in a bad mood all day long with you.
You couldnt take it, even for three days.
I was never too guo4 fen4.
I did not demanded that you leave your cca for me.
I shouted, yes.
But the contents were never as hurting as wat you hurled at me while you were angry.
yes, i know you are under lots of stress.
I tolerated, gave in, consoled you for one and a half months.
you?
barely three days.
This just shows the depth of love...

Will you stop getting me into trouble again?
I hate it!

Tee Hoon Cheng, i hate you.
all the things your son did was his own fault.
Not ME!
Even so, who you think you are to tell on me?
yes, even though he cannot control wat happens outside, he can control wat happens inside.
When will you stop blaming other ppl?
Why dun you sit down and reflect on yourself instead?
you left for germany when he was young.
Did you shower him with enough care and concern?
you were never there for him physically.
It's your fault.
I have no contact with him.
so stop blaming me already!
I have my own life to live...

2007-04-09T20:52:00.000+08:00

me and munling were staying behind to do advertisements for fishy. and we took some pics.

lol, the pictures very cuteeee!

All the above works are mine!all the whales are abnormally purple!

I love purple!

MunLing's long hair.and my short hair. But if you look carefully, there's one long strand of hair there lo.

LOL! today was a fun day!

2007-04-09T20:19:00.000+08:00

You always said i've changed.
I didn't.
I am always who i am
I change because you changed.
Remember,there was a period of time, when you were intolerable.
You flare up at every small little mistake i did.
You shouted,you scolded.
I was scared.
I gave in to everything that i did wrong and compromise.
But you did wrongs too.
I learnt how to fake my feelings in front of you.
I learnt how to mask my displeasure.
You never cared.
Never cared about wat i felt.
You just wanted to make yourself feel better.
Me,whenever i point out your mistake.
You shouted, you scolded.
You never wanted to admit your mistake.
It was the time i changed...
To become like me today.
I admit i am not perfect.
I know i've evoked alot of nasty criticism from your friends.
I admit i am dumb and sometimes i never cared about how you feel.
I learn my mistake and you always said you forgiven me.
Yet you never help me stand up against them,instead you agreed with them.
You let them tear our relationship apart.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop. But I have never regretted my time with you.
Annoymous.
Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
Kahlil Gibran.

2007-04-06T20:13:00.000+08:00

Happy Good Friday!
Woke up at nine plus and started doing a bit of maths revision. I suddenly realised that i got a lot of maths revision to do. I cant rmb a single thing about functions. haha.

den went munling's house to do banner for Fishy!
i ran after the bus 159, the bus driver damn nice la!~ Wait for me. Everybody in the bus was in the bus looking at me. so paiseh~

reached compass point. went to eat hotdogs with munling. She told me about her idea to write a book? LOL. wonder if it would succeed?

den met up with wanling and went munling's house. Munling's idea is to paint the letters on the white t-shirts. i slacked throughout cuz i suck at art. It turns out very nice! Thanks to the effort of wl and ml!

LOL. Wanling's little fingers is bleeding. *in great pain*

The "S" that munling drew. Looked so jagged.

Tada! Done. Guess who's the person lying there? =)))

LOL! munling spent like half hour painting that "Y" cuz she likes purple. got see seashell there?haha

After that took a break, den started to contact ppl for fishes. we look in the yellow pages for fish farms. call like 10 companies but all so expensive. per guppy 60cents lo.

Like that to buy 100 is already 60dollars. Where got enough? in the end we ordered 300+ fishes thanks to angie give de discount. LOL

SO VEXED la. cuz previous yrs, we ordered like 800 fishes, according to cunkuang. now like half the amount? sure cannot earn enough one lo.nvm. We shall work hard!

den went yoshinoya to eat and study.

at 6pm i went dapao mos burger for my siblings. I love the lemon mussels. so nice!

Some juniors coming to film us for pw.To burn into disc for the next yr sec ones. Guzheng going to be featured! yaye! we should take their interview lo, get to attract more sec1s!

jus uploaded the pictures in my phone to my new computer.